where i belong

i've never felt so alone before.
feels empty.
the closest, is at least 10 walls and a fake smile away.
the supposed close one
is many spaces away
personal space
breathing space
living space
a space where i dun belong

me.

im beginning to dislike myself.
dislike the person im becoming.

change is necessary.
it's inevitable.

where is the me
whom i love?

Disappointment.

disappointment.
is when a little boy waits anxiously for her present, but sees none.

disappointment.
is when a little student works so hard, yet sees no results.

disappointment.
is when a young lady pines for someone close to return, yet sees nobody.

disappointment.
is when a father wishes for his children to accompany him, but is left all alone.

disappointment.
is when an old lady hopes to have visitors at the home, yet all she sees are the 4 walls.

disappointment.
my new best friend.
my shadow.
why does it always follow me?
i only have a simple wish
yet its so hard to fulfil
the only place i see it
is in my dreams
and in the pictures painted
though im not sure if i shd still believe in them
afterall they dun seem to come true

why do people wish and hope
why do people set expectations
when it's not realised anyway
what they get in return is
sadness
anger
disappointment.