short overseas trip this morning... to our wonderful little island of Sentosa.been a year since i last stepped foot on it. so many things have changed. in just that span of 1 year, a new resort is being built, a new theme park coming up with an amazing looking rollercoaster ride. ooh. it's been sucha long time since i last sat on a rollercoaster. i used to frequent Asian Village - my favourite ride was the bumper car and rollercoaster. i used to scream on that rollercoaster til the people around me complain of partial deafness. hohoho. those were the days. simple life. simple happiness.
sentosa.. a place that grew up with me. a place where i used to visit with my parents when i was a little girl - watch the musical fountain at night, walk the dragon trail, be mesmerised by the underwater world, enjoy Fantasy Island, play with sand at the beaches. then accompanying me through my teenage years - class chalet at a seemingly haunted bungalow, where we played games, took ulu shortcuts, climb down a dark flight of stairs by forming a choo-choo train with only 1 torchlight, and had the company of 30 over monkeys guarding outside the door. uni days saw orientation games being held at the beaches as we played games, laughed ourselves silly, and most importantly, get a cool lobster tan. n not forgetting the lovely Santa Fe restaurant on the riverboat. as a working adult (gosh i feel old), it held memories of a company gathering, meeting with old friends, and a very scary nature trail.
liked this photo cos i tink i look pretty in it. for the 1st time, the sunglasses make my hair look nice. ha. isn't it interesting how we all look at ourselves 1st in the photo after we take a pic. the beauty of the pic lies in whether we look good in it or not.a pretty happy day off to a great start. and as how my day goes by, somehow it always ends up not the way i want it to be. maybe i expect too much. maybe i demand too much. though all i wished was for promises to be kept, for dreams to be realised. i guess im both a dreamer and a realist. i love to dream, yet i'll make sure they come true. or at least, i'll work hard towards it. i find it pointless dreaming of a beautiful future when it does not belong to me. khai asked me jus now, 'why do you work so hard and go out of ur way to be a gd trainer?' i guess it's in my character? i've got high expectations for myself. i must be the best. because i deserve to be. and because i want to. and i want to reach out to as many people, to touch as many lives as i can. what are you working so hard for?
guess it's also in my character, that i tend to over-give my 100%, and it zaps the energy out of me, when i dun get dat much in return. wat i get instead, is disappointment, worries, broken promises, n me smothering others with my care.
let me love myself more then.
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